sometimes always its feeling like everybody just says wait teo wait more. wait for times to do things waiting for times for talking to people waiting for people to be there for talking to an waiting for when we go to the big rocks store. thats a lotta waiting and i dont like waiting.
we had times with noworks an there was sposed to be more times for teo but everything so fuzzy from newpills its hard for being fronty. nobody has good thinkings. or good walkings. or holdings. and in the nights theres bad dreamings. they dont belong to teo but its loud an i see them anyways and then i feel bad too.
mostly i want new kinds family but sometimes i want a specialperson for loves an tingly things but thats scary too so i dunno. but i have the feelings but nobody wants to have knowing or talking. an i dunno where do i find anybody sometimes and maybe all famly goes away an hurts so maybe specialperson does too.
i would like pictures of me more than just the one littlepicture cause sometimes i think nobody has knowing what does teo look like. we look at people who make drawing but theres not ever any moneys just like theres not moneys for other things when i have wanting. i think we should get bear a specialperson too only it would be a lion and a white one a toy but a girl not a boy like bear. but thats moneys too and they say wait teo you just have bear just now an if you have too much lions theres not enough arms for holding anymore. i dont think that would be a bad problem maybe they say cause theres not moneys.
maybe we go to the disneyplace again tomorrow an see the dancing i like that too mostly cause theres colors an it makes good feelings of energies but i dont wanna just do that its not JUST for teo and i would do something just for me but i dunno what so if i dunno then prolly i dont get to have doing anything special. i dont like i have to know and ask but i dont like when i dont have knowing what to do either. its hard to have knowing when theres bad feelings.